Life stays busy, but I have finally learned that there is nothing more important or life altering than my quiet time everyday. On days when I wake up late or putter around for too long and don’t leave myself enough time to study God’s word, I’m such a mess spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally, you name it-ally. It’s so much harder for me to walk around and appreciate what a gift it is to be able to go to school and meet new people. And I get so frustrated with myself on days when I haven’t spent sweet time in God’s presence. My life is such a turned around state of affairs when I have spent time in the truth, and it’s so good!
Lately I have just been thinking about how God shows love and grace through his abundance. This summer I prayed continuously that my rooming situation would be worked out. I didn’t have a clue where to start looking for a roommate or how to start looking for places, but I knew that God would provide. Trusting him in that one little thing and moving when I felt that little nudge, was just the most amazing thing. Everything in God’s timing. I have the greatest roommate. In fact, I could not have found a more perfect roommate.
I’ve also just been thinking about what Dave Gibson always says about God being Plan A, and not needing a Plan B. I am such a super-secretive Plan B maker! I catch myself all the time second guessing God’s timing by double checking and securing a fail safe plan. I keep wanting to jump too soon and I know that if I just wait, God will come through. He always does, I just get over eager to see things happen even when I know that it’s not the right time.
And I realized that I really struggle with security. I want to plan something just in case God isn’t able to come through so that I have a plan to fall back. In doing that, I am continually undermining and underestimating God. It’s so ridiculous for me to use human reasoning on a being that created, maintains, and saved me! Absolutely kooky! He has proven his faithfulness, and I just need to fall back on it. Kind of like a trust fall. Anyways, this entry went a completely different direction than what I thought I was going to write.